Keep Going

It has been a rough couple of weeks. Physically, I’ve had this persistently consistent pain in my left shoulder. My range of motion is limited and I can barely lift it, let alone reach above my head. I’ve been putting off making an appointment to see a doctor, because I’m afraid. The pain is similar to that I had with my right shoulder some years ago. Long story short, the shoulder was so degenerated that I had to have my rotator cuff repaired. The recovery time was one of my longest and hardest. So I’ve been just dealing with it daily. Still trying to push through the pain to do my daily care stuff, like hygiene, eating, feeding walking the dog. Things healthy people take for granted. Putting on my clothes, especially my tops and bra is torture these days. Twisting and turning my arm, contorting my upper body in awkward positions trying to slip a shirt over the hurting arm, first. Still, I can’t help but get tears in my eyes. This pain is relentless. I couldn’t help but feel frustrated and a bit sad because I have so much to do. This morning I was really in a funk. I was emotional and really had to pray. Mostly I just laid there and moaned when words were all gone. This disease is a hindrance often. But after my prayer, I read Phillippians 4:6-9. And slowly good things, things I had been able to do in spite of my pain came to my mind. I got a cpr class completed. I had a virtual meeting about doing some advocacy work. I still managed to feed the dog and walk her around the block. And I posted a few things on social media just in time for the end of Mental Health Awareness and Arthritis Awareness Month. I do what I can plus a little extra and I must learn to celebrate my small victories and accomplishments. And I will be mindful to do that from now on because then I am inspired to Keep going. And I will.